you just don't know, don't you?

hello blogosphere.
I know that it's been a while since the last time I've even written anything on this virtual paper space that is temporarily mine for the time being.

acknowledging the fact that i am currently having my sem 3 exam, everyone is psyched on the idea that we're going to have our month-long holiday afterwards! yeay for us ;D but still, what rests on my mind is the thought of unfinished EE, unfinalised TOK essay draft, unresolved CAS hours and all those notes which i need to cram for the IB final in May.

a little part of me was telling me to screw with the exam as it wouldn't count as much like the other two exams before but this gives the best platform for me to at least test the current status of my studies, to see whether or not I'll do badly or just waaaaaaaaaaaaay worst that i thought.


sometimes, i question words. what does it mean to 'like'? what do we mean when we 'want' something? or simply 'admire'? when these things get mixed and jumbled up with other unresolved issues, wrong may appear right and vice versa. it's not that i don't cherish what we already have in hand (alhamdulillah for all His givings and blessings), but is it what we want is always the right things to have? and should we want it, is it really because we made up our mind about it, or is it just because we feel like it?

akal, hati, nafsu.
suddenly scratchy film slides started playing, of the times when i had my first usrah here, with fahmi, then with imran and with arip now. i learned a whole lot but do i ever implement those stuff?

*teringat something about manusia ni fitrahnya berbuat kebaikan, sebab tu bile nak buat jahat je, terpaksa come up with lots of creative ideas. kalau tak percaya, cube ingat balik when was the last time you did something bad. did it came naturally or did you have to devise a plan so that everything flows perfectly?*

i know i shouldn't waste my time
but i did waste my time. (103:1-3)

i know i should study
but i ended up not doing so.

i know i should be nice to people
but i just become a pain in the ass.

i know i shouldn't meddle in the things that i already know is forbid
but i just couldn't help myself.

i know what mistakes that i shouldn't repeat
but i just wound up at the same situation as before but with a different role.

pointless, is it of me being here? talk me some sense will you?
friends, if i say hi, i want to get more friendlier with you. if i text you, i don't want to forget that you're my friend. if i call you, it's me saying that you're important.
if i stop doing all that, it's me going numb on thinking of ways to make sure our friendship lasts.

*i forget ppl easily, studies as well.

p/s: tips to avoid pointless conversation, just say "No" when you're asked about anything and bear a few minutes of possible torment of "not knowing" in order to save your precious kJs of energy for other things (i.e. watching movies, playing games, other time-wasting activities) instead of engaging in an uninteresting few minutes of conversation.

hey moon, please forget to fall down.

di cnie ingin ak nyatakan yg ak sdg "SERONOK" berlepak2 di rumah. hal ini demikian adalah kerana ak sdg cuti mid-sem aka cuti awal Ramadan. sbg dak IB xpn any bdak kolej/skola, hwk yg bnyk tlah berjaye dicompilekn oleh ckgu2 kami yg penyayang utk mengelak kami2 ini dri melupakan kolej kami yg tercinta. yg tersebbut tu x masuk skali kalo anda ad keje2 yg tertunggak n' postpone yg hnya akn membuatkn anda rse nk ketuk kpala kt dinding smpy kpala anda mengeluarkn bendalir2 likat yg berwarna putih diiringi dgn aliran erythrocytes yg deras. dan seperti yg korg sume dh agk/lalui/taw, ak x wat pape ag.eh.buk, bukn. ak ad r sentuh sket. AT LEAST sentuh sket.nk siap tu, tggu habes sem r kowt bru siap.hahahaha XD

-presentation agama
-sinopsis Trem Bernama Desire
-bio notes
-chem handbook calculations
-ITGS assgnment
-Pure Math assignmet + workpoo
-bio DCP handbook
-amidosulphuric lab DCP & CE
-TOK (read)
-english essay

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da last couple f weeks has been quite......normal mayb
as i go about my normal routine of lyfe in kmb.
nuthin special/unique/bizarre happened.
bosan gk actuali.
but being there...x buhsan kowt
bile being in company of a few more outrageous personas
lyke hauzan, pak abu n' the others.
kalo anda x mampu menangani mereka2 nie,
maka anda x lyk duk kt klas m09t yg gile.
seyesly.and i RELI mean it.
we tend to do things in a very....different way
compared other classes.
dun' believe me?
ask da teachers themselves~
they'll agree...well,mayb~
hahaha XD

so far.
kt KMB,
we've alredi had
-merdeka celebrations
(my frens participated in one of da competitions and won. lol XP )
-UNIfair by overseas students which helped us in sum ways
-graduation for our xcellent super seniors

but now for da upcoming weeks.
-sports carnival (sumhw mengingatkn ak kt KOT sains johor dlu2~)
-KASUKMA (sadly basketbal xde.wat a bummer~ T_T )
-merdeka celebration 4 KM/KPM in KMB (nk volunteer x?kalo volunteer, kne potong cuti.
snggupkh anda? haha XP)
-and stuffs to fill da Ramadhan months (ye r, xkn nk duduk2 je bulan pose nie, kne xtive sket~)

and not ot 4get,
sdg kite2 nie ad klas,
akn bermule acara pencalonan
utk pilihanraya MPP KMB.
wahahaha.musti best t tgk dak2 nie berkempen+bwat pakatan rakyat.
lol XD

wif dat.
ak chow lu.
salam.







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